Christian tendencies.

I have this tendency of being reminded of everything I did wrong in the past. That one voice is going to haunt me repetitively saying I am a sinner and I am unworthy. I'd be reminded of the pain. The what-if's. Resounding regrets.

But I know those are lies. 

This moment is what I am going through right now. And I am quite surprised how it went tonight. I was busy distracting myself to everything I could do, and so I wouldn't hear that lie on my ears. I stopped a moment, talked to God. And here's how He responded to me. He repeated the statement of a hurting friend on our conversation days ago. "I like what this pain is doing in my life." Most of the times we don't want to get through the hard times. It was never hard to praise God on sunny days. But it takes a deeper faith to remain our stillness in the midst of life storms. We are usually consumed of all the why's in life while God is saying "see what this is going to teach you."

So I'm encouraging myself, (and yes, you too. :)) right now to stay still. And learn from these rough roads. Just as they say that "when your bicycle is about to fall, just lean on the side to which you're falling." And then you'll see, you'll see how far you've gone keeping balanced. Stay blessed xx

Choose God.

The fact I've known God and decided to have a relationship with Him is something I am very grateful about. Countless times I've asked myself, "where would I be without God? How would my life go without Jesus?" I remember the days without God in my life. Depressed. Full of anxieties. High suicidal tendencies. The list goes on and on. All of us are fully aware of that. But with God, you get a bit benign with pain. Not that you don't feel the hurt. But you know, every setback, every downfall, God is up to something. You would not lose hope for the God who placed the stars and calls them by name knows you too. And He values and loves you in a way nobody else can. The love you've been searching everywhere is here. The value you want to feel from other people is found in Him. Indeed, to know that this is the God we serve, that fact alone, is the greatest thing we can hold on to everyday. God is hope. God is security. God is the answer to everything. And so, given the million chance to change what my life has been, I will still choose God. I will choose God everyday.