Mahal, pakihintay ako. Mamahalin pa kita ng buo.

To you;

Who feel lost in the world you’re in:
If you ever feel like you don’t know what to do, and you feel tired of everything. When the entirety has been just a routine and you’re so done with it. If you don’t know what inspires you anymore and what you are called to do, please know yourself again. Please look what it is you’re living for. Relearn what makes you happy. And from whatever scratch you have, start again. Start with shaking knees. Start with all the fear accumulated in your heart. Try something new. Find your niche. Find yourself. And never let go of it again.

When you feel like you can’t take it anymore:

I want you to know that it’s okay. It is okay if your feel fragile. Please don’t stop yourself from feeling. You don’t need to show the world that you have it all handled. You can cry. And that is completely okay. You are a frail human being and you commit mistakes. Who in the world ever didn’t? So please, let it out. Let it burst. Cry until you feel your throat crumpled and you’re unable to breathe. And I beg you to remember that you are never beyond fixing. You’re already made whole way before you were even broken.

Who’s afraid of the risks:

Ask yourself why you are even afraid. Are you afraid of the outcome? Are you afraid of failure or are you afraid how the world will look at you when you fall? Are you afraid of yourself? There are a lot in the world to be frightened about. My dear, you lose twice as much when you don’t take the fight. And it’s your life anyway. If you ever tumble, rise up and move forward if you feel it is not just for you. Believe me, you’ll soon find your place. Nevertheless when you finally feel ready to rise once again, Just go. Claim it. This is going to be your winning shot.

Breaking the Human Impossible

The new year has come with a great entrance. As we have sought the Lord first during the annual Prayer and Fasting, revelations and visions are really lucid. God articulated well enough that this year should be a year for higher, wider, deeper faith. I can still recall each days' themes (I think so...);

1. Day 0 - Audacious Faith
2. Day 1 - Faith to Deliver
3. Day 2 - Faith to Declare
4. Day 3 - Faith to Conquer
5. Day 4 - Faith to Claim
6. Day 5 - Faith to Serve

(Ooops, I forgot some. TAGGED GUILTY.) But what I could remember more was how God moved in each night telling me to have faith to deliver, declare, conquer, claim and serve. But I also remembered I know these days would come. Because right now, I am starting to doubt on myself, and what is bound to come. 

As a graduating student, there's no denying that I am getting old, and more than that, maturity should be looked after much more. Soon I'll come to decide on my own and all. But the thing right now that scares me in the face is my future. What should I do after school? Should I take my Masters? Will I pass the Licensure exam? Will I have a job stable enough to save for what's ahead? And the list goes on and on without end. All God's promises from the beginning is now forgotten. I am doubting on my abilities that could help me win life.

But tonight, God revealed something to me again. Maybe it's just me, or maybe it's just the world we're in. Right here where we are, are full of people living by 'to see is to believe'. Let us holdfast to the fact that God says "...blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed."[1] Shouldn't we go live our lives for God? Shouldn't we listen to Him more and on His promises that what this world is telling us? Should we break the impossible?

And yes. It is hard to believe in the impossible (through the eyes of human.) But isn't it also a great thing that in our weaknesses, we have a great God that is strong? And that our weaknesses are made match to be filled with the grace of God. And probably that's the reason of being human too. To completely depend on the ever-knowing, omnipotent God that is above all. Trust God when you cannot muster the trust you want to give yourself. 

It is said that, "...now hope that is seen is not hope." [2] This is a reminder that we can always hope for the impossible. Come to think of it, we could have the tendency to believe that things happens due to what we can do. But if we cannot, we can see that it is the greatness of God alone that moved.

Let us get encouraged today not on who we are and what we can do, but on who God said He is, and what He can do. 

The best is bound to come :)

[1] John 20:29

[2] Romans 8:24

Head start.

So this is a clean slate right ahead of you, and it is all up to you how you'll do it. :) You can make the best of every day starting today. You can try new challenges. You can try to do new things. You can succeed. You can fall, and you can always always always start again. New year's are not meant to be celebrated just when literally a year passes by. New years are whenever you want them to be.